I was used to working my way around the lies to find a portion of the truth. He honored me physically and worked hard to know me emotionally. I was used to ‘kind when he felt like it.’ He was available.
He made it clear that I was the only girl he was interested in. He took the time to find cute ways to ask me out on (actual) dates and was always eager and willing to talk to me. I was used to craving affirmation from guys who played game after game.
And yet, I had forced other guys to fit like broken puzzle pieces because I just desperately wanted to be seen and loved.
Had I continued believing that “broken” was all that God had for me, I never would have found a truly good man. I was at a dinner with my group of friends, laughing and celebrating, when I discovered that my boyfriend had just slept with one of my close friends the previous night. Later on, I met someone who claimed to love me enough to marry me.
Sweet friends, let your prayer today be an echo of Luke , “Not my will, but yours, be done.” Replace your desperation and longing for a husband with a true desire to seek and know God with your whole mind and soul. Lindsey Maestas is a Christian based out of Albuquerque, NM.